Living Loud

Reblog to reach more people, okay? Need some help naming my...

Wed, 02 Dec 2009 12:07:47 -0500

Reblog to reach more people, okay? Need some help naming my sweet baby lovebird… Suggestions?

By the way, for people living in Singapore, if you want to take a good look at me, and happen to be...

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 10:22:14 -0500

By the way, for people living in Singapore, if you want to take a good look at me, and happen to be at the IT show (SITEX), I’ll be at one of the booths for the next three days :) You can come say hi and disrupt my sales routine, I don’t mind! (for a short while, at least)

Haha selling a super cheap LG netbook which really isn’t too bad.

will-r: Auntie BAL…? Is this incest? I haven’t followed srsly...

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 11:25:54 -0500

will-r:

Auntie BAL…? Is this incest?

I haven’t followed srsly or Mike in… forever.

Everyone else on there is legit and you should follow them. :]

Awwhh :) You’re on mine too!

Follow my other Tumblr, I'm in the process of moving there

Sat, 21 Nov 2009 12:01:31 -0500

Follow my other Tumblr, I'm in the process of moving there

morethanfine: Because I, Janel, am such a nerd, I refused to go...

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 14:10:00 -0500

morethanfine:

Because I, Janel, am such a nerd, I refused to go to sleep until I finished modifying my desktop.

I used Rainmeter and Rocketdock to get this beautiful desktop. Do you guys like it?

"Friends are people that touch your heart. You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and..."

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 10:25:02 -0500

“Friends are people that touch your heart. You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of your life, just because it was with them. They’re the people you can share your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with. They don’t judge you or make you change. They accept you exactly as you are.You all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs and smiles. Friendship is the strangest but greatest thing in the world. I find my time with my friends the best times of my life.”

- (via poeticheartache)

I am so grateful for the people that I've met online.

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 07:29:28 -0500

starkravingchristian:

will-r:

wide-eyedworld:

dickurtis:

Some of the literally changed my life. <3

morethanfine: Hall & Oates - You Make My Dreams(500) Days...

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 09:26:28 -0500

morethanfine:

Hall & Oates - You Make My Dreams
(500) Days of Summer Soundtrack

This is the one which he danced to :)

whomshallifear: starkravingchristian: tessruby: (via...

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 08:16:46 -0500

whomshallifear:

starkravingchristian:

tessruby:

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Little Superhero Girl. Me, now. I feel like a little girl trying...

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 08:08:00 -0500

Little Superhero Girl.

Me, now. I feel like a little girl trying to conquer the whole wide world. Everybody wants a piece of me and I just don’t know where to turn. I’ve got work piled up to my head, and all I wanna do is jump into bed and wash away my troubles with lemonade.. play hide and seek with the boy next door, take a trip to Singapore and imagine how I’ll make the world a better place.

Follow my other Tumblr, which I'm going to move to soon

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 13:12:02 -0500

Follow my other Tumblr, which I'm going to move to soon

Yes, bad english in previous post

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 10:45:33 -0500

When the rest of our project group members were slogging our butts off to produce the 3000 word Written Report, this guy said he had soccer training. He contributed in formatting Bibilography. Now he expects me to be his servant.

Oh-my-gee. I’m hardly like that but in instances like this I feel like slamming someone. Seriously. I hate it when I help people once, and they decide to climb all over my head.

And this guy, he said he was sick on Monday, so he had to come late for rehearsals… we believed him. Turns out: He was in school at 10AM chilling out with his team mates. Hello? Just because we give you the benefit of doubt, doesn’t mean you take advantage of us.

Oh well. We scold him for his good, don’t we? I’ll just not bother about him anymore. If he doesn’t change, he’s in for deep shit in life.

Thank you Naj for the encouragement though, it meant a lot :)

Seriously, I can't really bear to leave livingloud

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 09:26:12 -0500

But I’m really moving over to morethanfine soon, and I’ll still watch this space from time to time.

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Fri, 06 Nov 2009 03:35:22 -0500

humbleservant:

peacenotwar:

wordcut-outs:

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shouldn’t we be doing more? why do we let this happen.

Jesus wants you to be part of the solution.

People say that time will heal But you know, they just...

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 02:55:35 -0500

People say that time will heal
But you know, they just don’t feel what you feel
Times are hard but God is so good
He’s never failed you, and He said He never would

He sees your tears
He fights your fears

Hold on, help is on the way
He said he’d never leave you or forsake you
Stay strong
Help is on the way
He’d said he’d help you
Just reach out and take his hand

He knows your heart, He lifts your head
He’s always close enough to hear every word you said
When you’re weak, He said He’s so much more
His arm is long enough to reach you where you are

He sees your tears
He fights your fears

Help Is On The Way by Michael W. Smith

Vanessa dearest, this is for you.

Part of me is afraid to get close to people because I'm afraid they're going to leave.

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 02:54:29 -0500

(via eletheowl)

This is so true..

Desperation and where's the light?

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 22:03:40 -0500

alovesogreat:

I’m hurting so much its not even funny. I just feel as if I have lost total control of my life: church, my friends. I have lost myself and I desperately need to find the real me back. I need to regain whatever I have lost, I need to so damn badly.

I’m hurting because I’m afraid. So afraid of what’s happening now. So afraid of the many things that have happened this week. I feel like a coward, a weakling. I want to run back and hide in mummy’s arms. But i know if I do that, I will never ever grow up.

I started hurting so badly when I read your blog post today. Reminded me of everything that happened. D, your words echoed mine. Both your words echoed mine. Words I never once actually mentioned. The fact that I can get so hurt by someone who understands me so much just scares me.

I feel so afraid for you Y. I want you to let it go. I want you to learn to let people into your life. I want you to be able to get hurt. I want you to realise that in a relationship getting hurt is worth it so long as you really do care about the other party. I have gotten hurt once in sec 3, you have too, the one that split our clique up? Remember? Of course you do, the amount of pain we went through together just made it so fresh in my head. I’m getting hurt again. It hurts so badly but its okay, she’s my best friend and I think its worth the hurt. But you can’t take it anymore can you? Do you know it really scares me how you can be so adamnant about something that involves D. I know its just the fear of having to go through the hurt that is stopping you from doing alot of things. I do believe that she’s worth the hurt. Painful as it will get, its all worth it. I miss us very terribly. I hate having to cry on my own. I hate it especially now.

I have been failing. And i hate it. I don’t like this feeling of failure. I don’t do failures. Why is everything failing so badly now? What have I been doing with my life this year? What have I accomplished. Was giving up the exco position what I should have done? Its no time for regrets, no my apologies, there’s no point in regretting now. What’s done done.

To another you. I’m afraid because I’m confused. Do you know what I want exactly? Do you know how much I’m afraid of losing you? Do you know that because of that, I’ve been constantly reminding myself what I want to do with my life. I have been trying to keep myself focused. But its not working, please don’t ever mention it again, help me will you? You know what, I feel quite worried for you. I don’t know why. I saw that picture. I wonder how you hold up. If that ever happened to me, I would feel so crushed. But close as we may be, we never ever do talk about that. I just wonder how you actually are. Beneath all those smiles and everything, I wonder if you’re hurting badly. I do love you, and you know that right?

My life’s in ruins. I feel so messed up. I need someone to catch me, hold me down and talk to me. Get my life back in order. I need to be in control of things. I have never felt like this before. I feel so insecure its amazing how confident I was feeling just 2 hours ago.

I want to be a little girl all over again. I want to be able to be protected. I want to be able to feel safe and free from hurt. I want to live in a world full of happiness, sun, strawberries and fun. I think I want too many things for my own good. I’m just too idealistic right? I have got to grow up don’t I?

I want to talk to mummy but she’s busy helping Carman, I can’t give her added stress. And daddy is away. Plus I don’t think daddy can actually help me much. I just need to see daddy and for him to tell me everything will be alright.

I need God back in my life.

20 more mins to seeing daddy.

I’m always here if you need to talk, love :) Come for tk+cedar cell as well on Saturday?

The Quarter-Life Crisis

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 11:18:15 -0500

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn’t know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren’t so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

“The Quarter-Life Crisis” by unknown

Shit happens.

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 12:33:08 -0500

But sometimes it’s how we all respond to it.

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Wed, 04 Nov 2009 11:51:57 -0500

olli87:

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